Paines perspective

Todays fathers day and I got to see my Noah. I feel terrible because Todays fathers day and I feel like I have to spend today with my family. I like when Noah comes and visits me because it makes my heart feel warm and know that he cares for me. I also feel sad because I put myself in this mess. I miss Being home and playing with Abbey and Noah. When I get out of jail I'm gonna feel like I have to spend more time and focus more on the kids then myself. The one thing that im gonna like about jail is Its gonna give me time to think what im gonna do with the kids and think about my actions before I do them.

Sometimes I think my wife can be over protective around the kids and just to worried all the time when im around her or the kids. I kinda understand why but Sometimes she gets to worried. But People can change You know what im saying.... Next time I'm gonna do something bad Im gonna think before I do.